“On
a cane throne sat an old lady.
Old
but grand, like she'd stepped out of a portrait, with silver hair
and a royal purple shawl. I guessed she was the vicar's mother.
Her jewels were as big as Cola Cubes and Sherbet Lemons. Maybe she
was sixty, maybe seventy. With old people and little kids you can't
be sure. I turned to look at the butler but the butler'd gone.
The
old lady's rivery eyeballs chased the words across the pages.
Should
I cough? That'd be stupid. She knew I was there.
Smoke
streamed upwards from her cigarette.
I sat
down on an armless sofa till she was ready to talk. Her book was
called Le Grand Meaulnes . I wondered what Meaulnes
meant and wished I was as good at French as Avril Bredon.
The
clock on the mantelpiece shaved minutes into seconds.
Her
knuckles were as ridged as Toblerone. Every now and then her bony
fingers swept ash off a page.”
“There's
a rule that says you don't gaze too intently at a person's face.
Madame Crommelnyck was ordering me to break it.
‘Look
closer.'
Those
parma violets, I smelt, fabrics, an ambery perfume, and something
rotting. Then something weird happened. The old woman turned into
an it. Sags ruckussed its eye-bags and eyelids. Its eyelashes'd
had been gummed into spikes. Petals of tiny red veins snaked its
stained whites. Its irises mistily like long-buried marbles. Make-up
dusted its mummified skin. Its gristly nose was subsiding into the
skull-hole. ‘You see beauty here?' It spoke in the wrong voice.
Manners
told me to say yes.
‘Liar!'
It pulled back and became Madame Crommelnyck again. ‘Forty, thirty
years ago, yes. My parents created me in the customary fashion.
Like your potter making your vase. I grew to a girl. In my lips,
my beautiful lips, told my beautiful eyes, ‘you are me.' Men made
stratagems and fights, worshipped and deceived, burnt money on extravagances,
to ‘win' this beauty. My age of gold.'
Hammering
started up in a far-off room.
‘But
human beauty falls leaf by leaf. You miss the beginning. One tells
one, No, I am tired or The day is bad , that is
all. But later, one cannot contradict the mirror. Day by day, it
falls, until this vieille sorciere is all who remains,
who uses cosmeticians' potions to approximate her birth-gift. Oh,
people say, ‘The old are still beautiful! They patronize,
they flatter, maybe they wish to comfort themselves. But no. Eating
the roots of beauty is a ___' Madame Crommelnyck sank back into
her creepy throne, tired out.
‘An,
how you say, the snail who has no house?'
‘A slug?'
‘Insatiable,
undestructible slug. Where in the hell are my cigarettes?'
The
box'd slipped to her feet. I passed them to her.
‘Leave
now.' She looked away. ‘Return next Saturday, three o'clock , I
tell you more reason why your poems fail. Or do not return. An hundred
other works are waiting.' Madame Crommelnyck picked up Le Grand
Meaulnes , found her place and started reading. Her breathing'd
got whistlier and I wondered if she was ill.
“Thanks,
then…'
My legs'd
got pins and needles. As far as Madame Crommelnyck was concerned,
I'd already left the solarium.” |